The Insatiable me. Every day is truly my audition to Life!
Being insatiable can certainly have its pros and its cons. Insatiability, the act of never been fulfilled or satisfied with what you have. Well it is quite common for people around me to say that I am insatiable. I admit that I am,and at times it can work for me, or against me. Being insatiable will always give you the drive to do more , want more, and be better than you ever dreamed of, yet at the same time, it often can leave a sense of never being fully content with who you are, This is the struggle that has haunted me all my life!
I can still remember the little 5 year old girl in me. I was an insatiable monster, with the heart of a performer. I remember not wanting to live like a typical 5 year old, playing marbles, skipping and double Dutch etc. I wanted to dance; I wanted to tumble …and wanted to have an audience watching me! It’s weird. I think we are all born with a heart for” something”, or a true passion. I remember at 4 years old I was a self taught gymnast. By the age of 5, my parents thought I would hurt myself tumbling off that monkey bars all on my own…. so off to a gymnastics club I was to be taught by one of Romania’s best gymnastics coaches.
The competitor in me was cultivated at such a young age that from that day forward, everything I did was by competitive nature. I could not settle for the ordinary, or second, I had to be the best, or at least, do my best, which to me was never enough. Then once retiring from gymnastics I transitioned to dance and again the competitor in me came out. I auditioned for a dance troop, Strickly Salsa Dance Company and toured the world. I even auditioned for Madonna. What an experience! From Dance came the opportunity to extend my insatiable appetite to the world of Fitness. This was something I never thought I would do in a million years. Me, get up on stage with a diamond studded bikini? But again, I could not let this challenge beat me so once I entered the world of health and fitness I immediately became addicted. More so I was much happier about the education of how to live a healthier lifestyle while inspiring others at the same time. This is certainly where I want to be in life…yet the insatiability in me still prevails. It’s a drive that will never leave me. It’s a hunger that I will never fill. Perhaps in essence that is a good thing given it fuels my motivation to always step outside the box of life, it fuels my motivation to inspire, affect and stimulate changes in other people’s lives and lastly it inspires me to reinvent myself to become a better version of myself. Every day is my audition to life.